Some people know exactly what they want to be when they grow up. They know just the parents they want to be. They want X amount of kids and they are going to stay home or work X amount of hours and baby is staying with grandma… or whatever. I thought that was me. I thought I had it all figured out. I was going to graduation college, love my job, work, work, work and my kids were going to go to daycare just like I did. I mean I think I turned out fine. When H came home to us she was in daycare while we worked. She has turned out fine so far.
When we said goodbye to our son, C, I promised to squeeze in as much time as possible with my kids. The everyday rat race, working, parenting, school, reaching our goals and dreams was going to make it more difficult to give them a lot of our time but I was determined that time for them was at the top. It wasn't until after M came home that I began to question if I was approaching the goal all wrong. Perhaps I really didn't know what I wanted to be when I grew up. Perhaps I had no idea what I was doing!
H has always excelled at her education. She has a huge curiosity and an ability to retain information and put it together. She is a natural born learner. She has always taken what has been taught to her and asked for a little more. I suppose her Dad and myself are very similar, she might get it from us. I would be paid to be a student if I could ;)
The new home has inspired me. The way our bodies has spoken to us about our health has inspired me. M & H, our girls have inspired me! So I did have no idea what I was doing, and now I know I have to be willing to bend the plan. I have to be willing to accept that today is different than tomorrow, and today's decisions don't necessarily mean tomorrow I would make the same ones.
Today… this adventure speaks to my heart. I have spent many waking hours racing to figure out all the specifics, and a way to make it work for us! The beautiful thing about new beginnings is that rush, that high you get when you see all the possibilities and opportunities around you everywhere. It's been a long time since I've felt like that, but I've sure missed it! It's contagious… my family have embraced the ideas of change that I keep spouting off about at the dinner table. They say, yea lets do it!
That's the only support I need!
So one thing at at time I'm grasping this life transformation. I read today on J. Sanders blog, "Where you are right now has a bigger context and a higher purpose. Don't miss the party." I'm not going to miss the party. This is the new beginning of a homeschooling mom.
Today is the day… I held homeschooling in my home "officially" with my 4th grader, H.
I'm very excited to share our journey… for now here is H, on her first day of "not returning to school"
-A
